-comeback.-
it's been a long time...
it feels like ages ago since i last made an entry into this blog...
it even crossed my mind to close down this blog.
or maybe change something about it to keep me coming back,
pouring my thoughts and feelings in.
now, alot is kept inside of me.
in the good way, of course.
nothing that makes me worse,
everything that makes me better.
so my birthday has passed, and i'm 19 years and 5 days old.
so i've passed through a series of portals.
they're kinda one-way for now.
much has been through my heart and mind.
and for sure one of it was her.
but lemme get to her later.
me and my mates first.
been busy lately, with alot of things.
but i still keep time for myself to chill and slowly do things.
like now.
but that's gonna change soon, i've had enough rest, i think.
time to get busier, lah.
it's time to add one more training day into this program of mine.
Saturdays.
i'm back into the designing world, the arts and the likes.
although my laptop has been giving me display problems and stuff.
well. what prompted my comeback here...?
something happened of course.
something inside and something elsewhere.
i didn't let it butterfly-bypass me, i'm the one who should be bypassing.
now, i've set it free,
i've left something behind,
i took myself to break out of a cocoon that i've built for a while.
it wasn't a real change, it was more of a shedding thing.
got out of the old skin, got the new one.
but one thing always remains.
the unchangeable past.
i know i can't change it, i need nobody to tell me that.
i know i can control the future.
but there are things i can't control.
i'm getting used to some new rules i've made i guess.
i've always thought that someday, i will return.
but the price to pay before i do is quite big.
i will pay the price, but the price is time itself.
lost that former glory.
we have something in common.
it also taught me something.
things i'm now doing.
-Music.
-Designing.
-Study. (i sense some people smiling and a few clapping.)
-Prepare for my nephew's birth.
the shadow of the wind said...."When did you lose yourselves...?"
i must remind myself...
it's always the effort i put in, not the results i get.
By Time, I Miss You.
-a man's moment of weakness. but i have some other people who need me to be strong.-

